fuck
Fuck feeling inadequate. Fuck laying in bed thinking about everything you’re not doing. Fuck feeling like time is running out. Fuck self image. Fuck his perfect face. Fuck your unwashed hair. Fuck not trying hard enough. Fuck the internet. Fuck colds. Fuck being alone. Fuck loneliness. Fuck having to do it all over again tomorrow. Fuck youth. This isn’t youth. This isn’t freedom and weightlessness. Fuck not feeling young. Fuck you. Fuck me. Fuck this.
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fuck having plans for a life which you feel like you never fucking gonna get. fuck having simple plans for everyday life and fuck the feeling that you never gonna make it. fuck that everyone wants you to put them before you. fuck that you give in and give in 'till you reach the point of fucking giving up. fuck that if you put yourself in the first place for once in this fucked up life the others will look at you with those fucking plate-sized eyes and ask you what the fuck you are doing.
fuck life as it is. fuck feelings. fuck love. fuck that i have a heart and i can't fucking get rid of it.
fuck my life for that instant. fuck everything for that matter.
hey guess what? nobody gives a fuck. it doesn't fucking matter what happens. you have fucking feelings? who gives a fuck?
i tell myself every damn day that i will not give a fuck. then i find myself doing it. guess what? i give a fuck. i know that there's a reason for it. you don't have to understand. you might ain't give a fuck just as the overwhelming majority. but guess what? it doesn't fucking matter, either. it doesn't as long as i know that i give a fuck and haven't become one of the crowd. 'till i am the one in the crowd i am fucking good.
so while you don't give a fuck why don't you just watch me fuck up my life?